d.j.w day 3! - the acceptance of Christ

worship was great!
today, indeed, i thank God for touching so many people's live with his eternal love.
i feel so happie for jessica she has found the desire deep within her to walk with the Lord.
so many other people were touched today, and i feel so assured that God's presence was felt today.
though i didn't really feel it there myself, deep down i know that God is here. touching His children.
today, i rededicated my life to Christ.
and though i do it this year, i feel that this year is extra special.
'cos it's an important year for most of us and when trouble comes, it's when we need Him the most.
it was more of a calling from God to rededicate my life because something in me told me that this year, God will work wonders with my life. thank you Heavenly Daddy!

d.j.w day 2! - Discover Jesus Week

the life band from the third place came to our school and led us in some songs.. more or less the whole class was actually waiting eagerly for a good time of praise and worship but instead they sang pop songs (?). the music was great and everything.. but i really wanted so badly to praise God.

although i didn't get to do what i wanted to do so badly, the testimony from the girl (annabelle) was really appropriate for me and it somehow touched my heart and i believe even more in the love or God. sometimes, we tend to think too much about the things going on in this earth that we are living in that we forget that God is with us all the time. God accepts each and everyone of us for who we are.. regardless of our flaws, he takes them all.. He's always by our side and never fails to be there for us. for me, although somtimes i feel as though He isn't here for me and i lose hope, the testimonay made me believe and although we don't always feel God here for us, He's always by our side with an open arm, waiting patiently for us to accept Him and turn to Him. how do we know that God loves us? look at it, He sent his one and only son to die on the cross so that we can be saved and have eternal life.

i really thank the Lord for the great things that He has done in people's life that they can share it with others so that we too, may be touched by Him and know that He is there for us. thank you heavenly Daddy. thank you for loving me endlessly even at times when i stray away from you and think that you are the source of all my troubles. i'm sorry Father.

**we sang better than life to end off the chapel for today.. indeed God is better than life.. for He is the one who gave us life and continues to be with us and love us eternally. People on Earth may want us to change but God never changes, He loves us for who we are.
when the world turns cold, continue to let the fire within you burn strongly for God

my heart my heart my heart!!!

Heart of Gold


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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a blessing in disguise

imagine what i would have missed out if i decided to be stubborn last night and not listen to anyone.
i just can't imagine what i would have missed out today if i didn't force myself out of bed early this morning and reluctantly go to church.
yes, i admit i felt really reluctant but i decided to give it a try.
i feel like church is somewhere where i can just go with all my problems, and by the end of it, the burden on me is lighten ever so greatly.

firstly..
bryna and ade: a big big thanks to the two of you for always being ever so patient. thanks for always listening to my old big problems and never failing to help me forget my troubles and make me smile. you girls are the best! *huggss*
winston: thanks for always being there to listen to all my problems and helping me think of solutions. thank you for being so understanding and so willing to help me pick myself up again but i've fallen. and of 'cos a BIG BIG THANK YOU for persuading me to go to church today. the situation could have turned out way worse if i didn't listen to you and stayed at home the whole day!

haha.. now that i'm done with all my thank yous and that i feel so much happier today.. i shall tell you all the torture i had to go through today.. but first, there's always things to be proud of.. haha. i got chocolates today!! *applaud* because i remember the cell group leader's name!!! yay! haha.. worship was the time when i felt my burdens getting taken away from me bit by bit so i feel pretty blessed! sermon was really really good.. it left me thinking about my talents and how i should reach my full POTENTIAL! pastor kong was so animated that it really makes me wanna laugh to hard. went to jurong point with bryna, winston and morgan! haahaha.. MORGAN! then after that took a cab down to some house in toh tuck (i think) area.. and woah.. i ate like a glutton.. grrr.. someone told the cg leader that i can eat a lot so i was given a lot of food.. but oh wellz.. finish most of it.. then the worst part came. i was FORCED to play this "traditional" game. and i am not supposed to guess the correct number.. but on the last round, i did.. and i had to finish the whole tray of spaghetti.. i am staying away from spaghetti for quite some time.. okie.. very full.. went home and TADA! i'm here! God Bless You!

*i went to church not knowing how my life could be changed, but now i know. i feel peace and i feel joy and happiness. i am contented.

p.s: i take back what i said about God in the previous entry. for i believe that His love endures forever.

my life is cursed with unreasonable people

parents are so so so unreasonable..
i mean like helloo? it's my problem not yours!
"you can be friends with him, but he can't call neither can you see him"
like WHAT? i might as well not know him
"our biggest mistake is to let you be with him"
now tha'ts your problem, you made that mistake. you can't go back on it
"if you had to choose, would you choose him or the family"
that shocked me totally.. that sentence.. i mean go ahead and scold me but not to his extent
since i had to choose. i chose. you people should know my answer.
i mean as a family, they are supposed to show care, concern and love to me and look after you.
instead all they care about it your academic results.
like is reputation and results all you care about?
i hate them. i hate myself. i hate my life.
why does pain exist?
sometimes i really feel hopeless and always wonder why God put me in this cruel world.
in a world where the ones you love are the ones that hurt you the most.
God's an unfair God. i dun like Him anymore. i dun trust him. and most of all, i dun believe Him!!! He's a liar. the promises of always being there for you when you need Him most is all utter rubbish! when i feel the pain, it is when i don't feel him there.

i don't feel like going to church tomorrow.
i feel like i'm forcing myself to go to church nowadays.
so why lie to myself and go..
might as well, just stay at home and study since that's all my parents care about!

.:kimberly locke - eighth world wonder:.
Woke up early this morning
Made my coffee like I always do
Then it hit me from nowhere
Everything I feel about me and you
The way you kiss me crazy,
Baby you?re so amazing

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The water?s rising and I?m slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder,
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I guess that I?m just falling
Deeper into something I?ve never known, yeah
But the way that I?m feeling
Makes me realize that it can?t be wrong
Your love?s like a summer rain
Washing my doubts away

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The water?s rising and I?m slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder,
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

It?s only been a week, but it?s coming over me.
It?s making me believe that you?re the one for me,
Yeah, yeah

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The water?s rising and I?m slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder,
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Seven days and seven nights of thunder,
The water?s rising and I?m slipping under.
I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder,
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

you can escape from me you song!!

found the kimberly locke song.. i just love msealsmusic.com they have like the goodie goodie music there! hahaha.. oh wellz, just came to change the music.. nothing happened today lahz.. no point crapping again! muacks!! --07.33PM

[addition]
i just remembered something.. we had a killer day today in school.. like i had free period during bio and went to the library since mr tay doesn't let us stay in class anymore.. nevermind, got most of my a maths homework done up.. not bad sarah! haha.. so then later got PE.. it was literally a killer! let's see.. about 6 rounds the 308m track which mgs has made.. long time never run.. stamina went down like crapz.. the unglam timing of 10mins and 59secs for like 1.848km to be exact. must go running, must go swimming.. i dun wanna fail my physical fitness test manz.. okok.. had gastric while running.. oh so lucky me.. then after that had to do 30 sit-ups ALONE. there was an odd number of people! bleagh. so fine. then another 16 with mrs kwan's help. then we had the double steps to do which reminded me of twinkle toes. haha. okie.. then she started adding jumps and everything in. so tired okay? phew.. thank goodness PE was over then.. next time, i'll remember to sleep early and eat a heavy dinner the night before PFT! grr.. *growls*

the rest of the day was just crap.. didn't have the time to finish my SS test paper.. crapz. gonna do like ultra badly.. i was like however, the nanny state.. blah blah.. pens down!!!!! wahhh.. my world came crumbling down.. first time i might just fail my ss.. help! i needa a miracle!

the tired mind of me...

muahahaha.. today, sarah feels very very tired.. haha.. after A maths thingie.. which was the BIGGEST lie i ever made this whole week! =) first i told mr ling a little tiny winy lie.. then after that i cancelled my music lessons because i was too tired! i'm gonna repent soon.. dun worrie about that..

ah.. aha.. ahahaha.. oh oh.. i am supposed to have maths tuition so that i can get help in like my A maths and all.. but nooooo, mr chan (raymond) happily forgot about it!! grr.. oh wellz. found a place to bunk at during my little runaway mission.. haha. thanks dude! and like funkae.. studied a little lahz. i'll finish the rest soon and i realised i have like chinese zuo wen to do, lotsa ss to complete. with an ss test tomorrow. how am i ever gonna cope?

i'm really messing up these few days
i wanna do something bad but leave clues everywhere
i'm getting careless day by day
maybe i'll just end up walking anywhere
maybe up, down left or right
I NEEDA CLEAR MY MIND!!
~i'm just so so so confused about the issues that's within me~

PS: i passed my first geog test of this year!!!! hallelujah! praise the Lord!

argh argh argh!

argh argh argh!!! grrr..... i just typed like a whole lot of stuff and now they disappeared just like that!!! anyway, as i typed.. happie advanced birthday people!

happie birthday grandma, letitia and gris!

so many happie babies tomorrow! haha.. oh wellz. later cousins coming over for dinner because it's my granny's birthday tomorrow! how sweet.. we finally get to sit down as the lims and lows for dinner! haha it's been quite a while.. i havent' finished all my homework, i'm left with chem and chinese tys to doooo.. gonna do my social studies later on.. i mean we got chinese, chem, social studies and lit tomorrow.. so it's like all the hw is due tomorrow! help!!! oh! i just have to work so much harder this term for the mid years.. it's so stressful being in mgs.. sighh..

8th world wonder by kimberly locke rocks!

ahhh i love love love love that song so so so super much because it's such a nice nice song! i'm so super hyper and i dunno why.. maybe it's because i'm listening to KING OF MAJESTY!! hahaha.. it makes me feel happie and relaxed.. haha oh yeah!! bet i'm boring you all to death by now.. i shall take my leave.. muack muack muack muacksssss.. love you all my friends! *snickers* BIG HUGS!!!

cut my hair -- lose my temper -- what could be worse

*hugs*
good day to you all my little darlings.. first up all the messages to all my pals..

diott and bryna: congratulations on the silver for gb!
sherilyn: congratulations on the new hair cut. i cut mine too!
colin: it's okay if you don't get into sa, you dun like it anyway.. whatever it is, i think SAJC's arts still rock! =)
ade:go cut your hair tomorrow! haha. saw you at the bus stop! positive it was you!
nicky: nicky! dun get too pissed of with whoever that guy is.. he's just a retard who has nothing better to do with his life.

okie.. today, i got my hair cut.. pretty sad about it because i actually when there to tidy up the hair, but she cut it sooo short.. and now it's like my fringe is actually flying around.. but oh wellz, hair can grow.. apparently mine is just really slow. no pun intended.

gotta finish up all the homework given my school in like 2 days.. well i started some but not complete.. i h-a-t-e doing the chinese tys.. it's so boring.. sighh.. life is beginning to get meaningless again.. it's like an everyday routine.. all the nagging and all the scolding i get everyday.. i'm losing my temper ever so frequently and i'm losing all the patience that i once had.. someone save me from my misery.. it's ruining everything good in my life.. when i lose my temper, i feel angry, i hurt the ones that love me.. when i lose my patience, i take it out on anyone anything.. rid me of this feeling, please.

whatever it is, i love you all, i'll try not to lose my temper at you lovely people! *muackz*

*we love because God first loved us!

lunchie friday

Jason Mraz - the Remedy

I saw fireworks from the freeway and behind closed eyes I cannot make them go away
Cause you were born on the fourth of july, freedom ring
now something on the surface it stings
that something on the surface it kind of makes me nervous who says that you deserve this
and what kind of god would serve this? We will cure this dirty old disease
if you've got the poison I've got the remedy

the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.

I heard two men talking on the radio in a cross fire kind of new reality show
Uncovering the ways to plan the next big attack
they were counting down the days to stab the brother in the be right back after this
the unavoidable kiss, where the minty fresh death breath is sure to outlast his catastrophy
dance with me, because if you've got the poison, I've got the remedy

the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how youre gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.

When I fall in love I take my time
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why
Because

the remedy is the experience. It is a dangerous liaison
I say the comedy is that its serious. Which is a strange enough new play on words
I say the tragedy is how you're gonna spend the rest of your nights with the light on
So shine the light on all of your friends because it all amounts to nothing in the end.

I wont worry my life away.
I wont worry my life away.
I wont and I wont and I wont

muahahahhaa.. just came back from lunchie.. so cool.. ate nydc today.. funkae i tell ya! eat like a pig manz.. soooo much! went back to my primary school days of eating spaghetti bolognaise!!!! hehehe.. then went down to 7-11 *cough ade cough* and got myself some chewy gummy bears =) ate them on the way home.. haha.. feel so contented.. ate so much.. but kinda sad though.. went out today, but it wasn't him... but oh wellz, if school work calls, then i believe school work calls. i just don't wanna get hurt over and over again by the one i truly love. in every relationship, there is always the 4 (or was it 3?) colours of love..

[edited: thanks brenda for the info]
orange -- when everything seems so perfect and peaceful
green -- when jealousy starts to settle in
blue -- when the relationship is about to end and everything seems like they are falling apart.
rainbow -- when everything starts to get better again =)

going for dinner later.. with parents.. sighh.. then going to watch Gospel of John. peace out! love ya'll! --3.41PM

*edit* just came back from a realli realli heavy dinner and no, i dun haf bread for breakfast.. haha.. oh wellz.. hmm.. decided not to watch movie 'cos bro wasn't interested in watching it at all.. sighh.. stupid punk! oh wellz.. so i'm home.. and i get to use the phone! wahahaha.. on my way there, saw ade at her bus stop and haha.. she dress until so nice.. *nudge nudge* ade, where are you going? hahaha.. oh wellz.. i'm done with my p.m.sing and now i'm back to my happie self.. congratulate me pals.. hahahah.. i'm like laughing all the way, and making spastic jokes out of everything.. hahahha.. yippeee! it's time for me to go and take a shower after a day of eating and lotsa eating.. toodle dooos..

brenda and sarah's cheeeena day!

today went brenda at douby ghaut mrt station.. haha.. we couldn't find each other then we decided to patrol the place to find each other.. and most definitely we got stares.. oh wellz.. went to victoria theatre half an hour early.. bought cleo and sat down at the bus stop to read.. went in to watch the play.. haha.. actually the plays were all quite good except the last one which was a total anti-climax thingum.. sigh.. but the first two allowed us to get our $10 worth of wad we paid ($15).. and FINALLY i got to taste wad xiao long baos tasted like.. went to crystal jade and ordered xiao long baos and then went home.. home sweet home.. realli tired so sorrie, there isn't any details =)

stacie orrico - more to life

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
To life..
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life....life..
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...

oooooh another song that i love because it's so apt.. sigh.. wad's wrong wif me manz.. why are all these stupid songs so apt to me? am i really that full of problems? oh wellz.. actually, i was doing my wish list just now.. and there wasn't anything i can think of to write down.. so i just like left it there.. haha.. loser lahz.. nothing to wish for.. i guess that i am provided for in every way.. and i realised that i am quite contented with my life.. and i don't really really need anything at the current moment.. the onli problem is my obstacles in life.. haha.. the speech! i MIGHT be back.. i think i'll go swimming or something now =) --10.25AM

**yay! i removed the ads.. well i hope that you can't see the ads anymore.. =) all thanks to ade*.. i sure hope it's gone!

the computer is alive again!~

hahaha.. i finally fixed the computer which my brother had spoil a few weeks ago.. hah. the early bird catches the worm.. oh oh oh guess what? today connie didn't know that it was holiday for me and she woke me up at 5.45am.. like thanks manz.. haha.. of 'cos my pathetic lazy me went back to sleep.. i mean the holidays manz.. currently still debating whether i should be an idiot and add the music to my bloggiez or just leave it as a quiet little place? hmm.. any suggestions people.. that reminds me.. those of you who haven't seen sherilyn's blog.. GO SEE IT NOW! it's an order.. i love her doodleboard.. haha

something's wrong wif me, i'm currently spoiling everything i touch.. haha.. let's say i spoilt the music in the computer and now i can't listen to music apart from all you wonderful people's websites/blogs.. haha.. thank you all.. but those who don't haf musics.. dieeeee...... just kiddin' =D i'm trying to listen to that not so very old song.. by jason mraz.. but my computer just won't let me listen to it! sheesh.. grr.. haha.. why i like it so much? i was reading through the lyrics and i find it so apt.. think i'm mad? read between the lines people! hahahha.. and i hate hate hate this computer.. i feel like smashing it.. i fixed it and something else happened to it!!! wahhh.. this is incorrigible!! help! help! help! too much! gonna buy flour and eggs and butter and all the other stuffies for baking and i'll be back after baking.. i guess! tata! ciaoz for now! --10.43AM

*back as promised* aha.. the cookies rock manz.. not because they are as hard as rock but because they realli realli taste realli good!~ congrats winston! hahhaha.. oh wellz.. went to watch runaway jury.. nothing great about it.. stupid bryna lahz.. dun dare to watch scary movies so we had to watch runaway jury instead.. bah.. almost fell asleep.. haha.. was so tired plus the movie didn't realli make much sense in the beginning.. but it ain't my fault okay? humph.. spastic show.. haha.. oh yeah.. bryna, you succeeded in making me stay in choa chu kang with you all the way until 7pm thanks to your stupid octopus balls dieee octopus dieeee. haha.. made it back for a maths tuition.. so fun.. i know how to do differentiation.. haha.. hallelujah.. God sure works wonders manz.. haha.. first i understand the mole concept and can even do the tys now i can do the a maths tys as well.. HALLELUJAH! hahaha. i'm kinda high..

the march hols are like mugging times manz.. so argh.. humph.. nevermind, i'll still take some time off to spend with my friends =) don't worrie pals.. love ya all.. tata

like finally...

i found a computer to use.. haha.
current location: colin's house
suffering from: dried eyes due to fan blowing into it
rejoicing for: no tuition today (mom let me skip)
things to do: buy prezzies for people
teach colin how to play "Right here waiting"
settle issues etc.
currently listening to: Stacie Orrico - more to life


that's about all the summarized stuff..

went to church today, and the things that the sunday school teachers said really left me thinking about whether christians are really hypocrites in disguise of angels. for instance, we are taught since young that it is wrong to judge others by the same people who judged different kinds of churches.. for instance, the charismatic and the roman catholic churches.. like what they do is wrong? i mean like what? i was sitting there, just thinking about everything they were saying.. and almost everything was not true.. i mean half the people living in my house are roman catholics and what sunday school teachers say about them are not true at all.. they don't treat the priest like they are the most high.. i was really just plain angry.. can't they do what they preach?

sometimes, i really feel lots of anger when i just sit in church and all
and when the teachers say that we should be happie all the time to tell others that we have the Holy Spirit in us
but if we really aren't happie on that day, are we to put up a front just to make people see how happie you are?
but doesn't that just mean we have to lie to ourselves?
it just doesn't make sense all the time.
the same people contradict themselves all the time
when do i know when i should trust that person?

help me, figure out the difference between right and wrong, weak and strong..

whatever it is,
i leave my life in the hands of God
and pray that He will lead me through my obstacles in my life.
thank you Father for always being there for me and always guiding me through my problems..
that's why... I LOVE JESUS so so so so much!!!!

it's meeee!!

oh yes. :) this is *ade helping sarah with her lovely template. :) and yes. i have succeeeeded. hhahaah. :) yes. and so. she shall go. before sarah decides to kill her. hahha. ttfn!!

*ade

after a week

lotsa things been flashing through my mind
problems with friends, family and my life
school work never seemed so tough to complete
all i ever wanna do is just be me
but now many people can accept me for me?
not many i guess
i know one can.. Jesus can
i love you Jesus
but when the world isn't filled with love
i continue to love because God first loved us
tell me what to do.. tell me please
i speak to Jesus, my brother, my comforter, my shepherd, my friend.

not a very long time ago, in mgs...

sarah made one of the greatest and biggest decision! she has officially dropped biology! but i kinda regret it now that i am having my free period now.. oh wellz.. since my bio teacher doesn't seem to have faith in me, i dont really see the point of continuing.. at least mrs lim has a little faith that i can actually do well. well, i hope that i won't regret anything.. but wad is done, is done! i can't turn back now.. my parents seem to be neutral on this so i figured that the decision is all up to me now.. like so many things are happening to me now and i am not sure what else is going to happen to me tomorrow and the day after and whenever..

currently in the library.. mrs chong may seem biased at times, but actually franky speaking, she believes that our class can do well.. so as lao shi.. she's really understanding and all.. i'm still thinking about my biology.. letitia dropped bio as well.. i'm not alone in this.. i guess.. i'm sure that God is going to walk me through this time of my life.. the peak at which i'm the most vulnerable.. thanks to all my friends who have encouraged me and stood by me through all my problems!~ well the bible says that "ask and it shall be given, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door shall be opened unto you" so i made a pact with myself and with God that i will study my hardest and do my best in school, so when i leave this year, i don't regret not doing anything because i know that i have tried my best.. but for now, what i need is comfort and someone to be here with me..

hold me in your arms
never let me go,
i wanna spend the eternity with you
and now that you're near
everything is different,
everything's so different Lord.
i know i'm not the same,
my life you've changed,
i wanna be with you
i wanna be with you..

how am i gonna tell my parents about my decision?i really dont' know.. i guess that i have to hope and pray that they will accept my decision... sighh.. my life is more or less gone.. relationship problems with both my peers and my family.. sometimes even with God.. what am i to doo? pray pray pray and pray.. for God has worked wonders in my life.. i'll trust him once again.. with my life and my work and my problems.. what would i do without Jesus, what would have become of me?

*PS: i would type more but my hands are frozen in the library.

i love my Lord and Saviour! Jesus, You're all i need

sarah low
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